I hate gambling.
I’ve come to realize how my I hate gambling. It doesn’t make sense to me to want to risk my money in hopes of a larger reward. Although I have purchased the odd lottery ticket here and there, but I am almost always disappointed after the fact. I am not a dreamer where I think I will win the jackpot, but I have on occasion gotten sucked in the hoopla surrounding it. I have to casinos and almost always spent less than $5, and upon losing that money, gotten annoyed and spent the evening people watching. I find the latter a lot more enjoyable.
I find it ironic that I hate wasting my hard earned money gambling, but have no qualms buying junk that I have no need for. I hate this mentality and have recently become very aware of it. Whether it is the extra winter coat or the new headphones or cell phone, or tablet. I seem to able to justify them more when they are just as much of waste as gambling. I can only use one coat/pair of shoes/sunglasses at a time. I have always judged people when they spend evenings at the blackjack table or at the slots and assumed they all have issues, yet I don’t sit down and look closely at my spending habits. It is rather ironic that I am judge without looking internally first.
Something about throwing stones and glass houses.
Not to go on a rant, and no I am not depressed but I am starting to finally see the result of my actions and I don’t like them.